Martha, Martha

You know how sometimes you see something random over and over and over again until you understand that it is God trying to point something out to you? Well, I have heard the names Martha & Mary about four times since MONDAY. I read it in Captivating, saw a book called Being a Mary in a Martha World, read it in another book, and it was the main topic of CRU last night.



Good golly.



The more I hear about it, the more I realize how much of a Martha I am. The more I try to be Mary, the more Martha I become.

It is kinda comical how much "Martha" sounds like "Marcia." As in Marcia Brady. Marcia Marcia Marcia, its all about Marcia.

Its all about Martha too. Or at least she wants it to be.

Luke 10:38-42
As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

It is really hard not to be Martha. Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to be LIKE Jesus that I forget who He really IS. Jesus tells us to love. Jesus IS love. The two greatest commandments are to love God and love people. But sometimes I mix up the order of the two. We get so focused on loving each other that our spiritual lives suffer. I know my biggest problem is that I hate dissapointing people, saying no to people, etc. Loyalty is and always has been my biggest issue. Its a big thing in the dance world. You get places by being skinny and loyal. Sad, but true. I am so loyal to people. Although they are God's children, sometimes I think I am more loyal to THEM than I am to HIM. I try so hard to make sure that my friends know that I love them that I let that get in the way of what God is really calling me to do. I get caught up in the importance of what I am trying to do that I forget WHO I am doing it for. I have too much on my plate because I never want to dissapoint anyone. I need to just sit at the feet of Jesus and rest. HE is the most important, because without him, I am nothing.

"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
John 14:6